I was running today because I was in a super bummer mood. The mood may have been perfect, but the cold, windy air did not make my run pleasant. Killed my throat.
About to do my first professional wedding photo shoot. Wish me luck
To my best friend:
I often find myself confused with our relationship. So many ups and downs but at the same time, none at all. At the end of the day it always ends the same. I love you and cherish you more than you will ever know. Those few hours a year are the most anticipated times of my life and I wouldn’t trade them for anything. The compassionate secrets we both hold and the comfort we place on one another is a bond I’ve never experienced before. You and I both live separate and complicated lives yet we can take these few moments and laugh about the experiences we’ve faced. No matter what happens or what either of us go through in life, you will always have a friend in me. You will always be in my heart. I’ll always be there for you for anything. You’re one of the most important people in my life.
It took five years for me to show you how much I really care yet I don’t think either of us know exactly what that meant. I love you.
To my best friend:
I’ve known you my whole life. There hasn’t been a lot of time where we weren’t close. I’m so proud of the things you’ve accomplished and what you’re doing with life, no matter how simple it is. I constantly feel inferior to you, but it makes me proud to be your brother. You’ve helped me accomplish so much for my life in this post year alone that I don’t know exactly what I’d do without you. We don’t have a lot of deep conversations anymore but I take a lot out of the few we do share. I have so much respect for you and I don’t think I know how to show it to you. I hope our friendship never changes regardless of whatever can happen. I love you, man.
To the one I’ve lost:
I constantly look back on what we had and what was lost. I regret not putting as much effort into our relationship that I could have. I was capable of so much more and you tried so hard to pull me back in on so many accounts, but I never took the bait. You constantly wanted to better yourself and wanted to better me at the same time but I was just so oblivious and ignorant. I’m sorry for not putting the effort I should have into us. I’m sorry for all the hell I put you through one it was all said and done. I wish I could take so much back and redo so many things, but I can’t. It’s the outcome that I have to face and I’ve finally accepted that. It taught me a lot. I genuinely thought you were the one for me and I loved you unconditionally. I have a hard time accepting that I’ll never have something as perfect as you again, but I’ve come to terms with it.
I see that you’re happy and that everything seems to be going well for you and that’s fantastic. I’m glad that everything is shaping up the way you wanted it to. I wish that I was the one supporting you and taking that journey with you, but I lost my chance. Continue being completely awesome. I still love you.
To a few of you reading this:
(if you’re questioning if you might be one of the people I’m talking about, then you probably are) I wish I lived near you so I could be your best friend. You’re so fascinating and interesting, I feel so insignificant compared to you beautiful basterds. I’m glad that you follow me and I follow you. Maybe someday we can become real life best friends.
It only took five years